Tuesday, December 16, 2014

But I Refuse




They tell me to "guard my heart" ~

                       But I refuse.                            





            "I'll trade the fear of all that I could lose, for every moment I'll share with you."




Like A Piece of Furniture



                                                               I am here to stay.

                                                        I am not going anywhere.

                                                          I will never leave you. 





                                                            "I won't run, I will stay
                                                              I'm not leaving you."






Monday, November 24, 2014

Real Time


I don't need to be your friend on Facebook.

No, I get to 

see you ~

know you ~

enjoy you ~

in Real Time

I get to greet you in the morning ~

and say goodbye to you each night ~

I don't need to call you

or text you

to make plans

I know I just I will see you there

whenever you want to be there

My dog will watch the stairs

and I will turn ~ instinctively ~

glance upwards

recognize your orange hat

your black hoodie with the torn pocket

your robust arms

and your little dog

Smile

and Remember

it's really all about

Real Time








Tuesday, October 28, 2014

Healing from The Healer


There was a moment on the beach this weekend when I asked myself, "How do I heal from The Healer?"

This extraordinary person who ~ without even trying ~ healed me.

I thought I would never get through that summer.

But I did.

And with each footstep I took on that beach ~ with each word that was shared ~ with each laugh that echoed amongst each wave ~ I healed.

I healed as the sun streamed down on my face ~ walking back and forth ~ playing joyfully with the dogs ~ 

            Life became so much simpler ~ so much sweeter.  I was happy again.

Summer turned to fall, and my confidence in myself grew.  There was no more shame from words once spat at me last spring.  Those words from another man were a distant memory now.  My self-esteem that was once shredded now blossomed again.  

I was healed.

This incredible soul ~ this incredible spirit ~ had healed me.

But for one weekend, I felt the loss of that healing spirit.

"How do I heal from The Healer?" I wondered.  

Healing from The Healer ~

The Healer ~

I cried, I prayed, I cried some more.

I walked that beach for hours ~ in fits of rain ~ then rays of sunshine.  The little dog and I.  This time alone.

I cried, I prayed, I cried some more.

Then felt the surge of a large wave crashing towards me.  Holding on to my little dog ~ keeping both feet steady in the submerged sand ~ remaining calm with nothing to hold onto but him.   

"How do I heal from The Healer?" I whispered, "How do I walk this beach alone?" 

I let go in that moment and trusted the path ~ the journey ~ I was on ~  

And soon discovered ~ that The Healer remained.

Happy to see me, talk with me, laugh with me.

The sea is calm today ~

                                       Life is serene ~

                                                                 And I am healed.








"You can be an agent for healing another 
by simply being present with them consciously and patiently."
~ J. J. Goldwag





Monday, October 20, 2014

Easy to Love



"Paddington loves you ~ he loves you so much."

"Yes, I know," he says softly, smiling down at my little dog.

"That's because you are easy to love."






Sunday, October 19, 2014

Tears


Tears ~

          of

              Joy

I cry

       and

               feel

Happiness

                  sprinkling

                                   across 

                                               My Sunburned Cheeks

Close my eyes

                      Look up

                         to

                     The Sun

                                  and

                                         Smile ~

Thursday, October 9, 2014

Precious


He is larger than life.

And yet so humble ~

A humble man, a gentle soul who fills my world with ~ kindness.

This joyful man who makes me feel like I matter.

Who listens and asks questions ~

Who ~ with one sweet little smile ~ erases ~ the pain I once felt.